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I had my first day of training in my new job today. It was definitely different going from being the one in charge and running the training, to being a participant who doesn’t know a whole lot. I still stand by my theory that the first 2-3 months of a job is the toughest. I hate not knowing everything there is to know about my job. I hate having to rely on other people to help get me through the simplest of tasks. I know this is just a natural thing that will happen no matter what kind of change I make, but I hate it!

In weekend news…. hung out with the family and my friend Katie who I haven’t seen in a while. Something else happened with friends that left me feeling a little disappointed and pretty hurt. I don’t know whether my expectations are too high or I’m just anal… I really do try to relax and take things as they come but I don’t think it comes across that way to others. *sigh*

People always make such a big deal out of change. I don’t think I’ve ever really thought to much about it, or had a concious problem with it… until this last week. I’m making a big change in positions at work, and all week long I haven’t been able to sleep well or eat right. At least the change is what I’m attributing those problems to. I’m going from one great job to another, but they are very different positions. I’m sure things are going to be fine, but I keep thinking in the back of my mind - did I make the right decision? I will miss my current team very much, I have some great friends there and it will be lonely not to be with them all the time. Not that I won’t see them… but not in quite the same way, no longer a part of the team. I have one more week left in my current position, with alot on my plate there still to do - so it is making it difficult for me to mentally prepare for what I’ve got coming up. I also need to clean out my desk and all my filing cabinet draws. I don’t have a place to put all that junk in my new position…. what do I do with it all?

My current role is very demanding, and takes alot of energy even after I leave the office. Not uncommon for me to work a 10+ hour day there and then spend a few more hours of prep time at home getting ready for the next day. My new role will be challenging, but pretty much when I’m done for the day, I’m done. There won’t be much baggage to take home with me. In a weird way I’m worried about that too. What am I going to do with all this free time? I love being busy and sometimes have a hard time when I end up with to much free time on my hands. Maybe this will give me an opportunity to pursue other things I’ve wanted to do. Maybe go back to school again too. I need to make a plan…

not even a month into existence and i think i’ve already become a blogging slacker! how do you other avid bloggers do it? crazy!